On May 19, 2018, I flew to Washington, D.C. to start my summer as a City Host for CSM. I had absolutely no idea what to expect but I felt God starting to work on my heart. I remember my first day, meeting the other hosts and thinking to myself, “why me?” — I couldn’t understand why God chose me when  it felt like all of the other people in the room were much more qualified.  I had no idea how I was going to lead groups of people on a spiritual journey during their week serving God. I wrote a note in my devotionals on May 29, 2018, that read, “I am begging you to show me the way, God. I feel so lost and uncertain. Please give me the confidence to do your work.” I soon realized that nothing great ever comes from being comfortable.

It didn’t happen immediately but once I came to terms with putting my faith and trust in him everything seemingly fell into place. I was doing things I didn’t know I was capable of because of the Lord. He gave me strength in areas I was weak. He gave me courage when I was nervous. He gave me confidence when I felt inadequate. But this is more than just a story about me, it is a representation that all things are possible through Christ. He can use anyone, regardless of how incapable you might feel at times.

My eyes were opened to so much this past summer and I was exposed to things that I wasn’t used to. Over the course of the summer I experienced what can only be explained as God’s work. I absolutely fell in love with being a CSM City Host and I was able to connect with people on a new level. I opened myself up like I never have before.

I would continuously go back to this quote that I found and shared with multiple groups over the summer. “Never be deluded into making this statement: ‘I am here because I am so useful,’ say rather ‘I am here because God wants me here.’” This reminded me the importance of staying humble and giving all the credit to Him.

One of the most amazing things about our God is he never fails to surprise us and remind us to stop worrying and trust in him. I grew in my faith more than I could have ever imagined this past summer and I feel so incredibly blessed to have had the opportunity to meet so many of God’s people. I have learned that all the plans that I have for my life will never compared to what God has planned for me. The people that I encountered during my time in D.C. have humbled me and made me refocus my life onto the Lord.

I can’t really put to words how much this summer has meant to me. It changed my life and it transformed my faith in Jesus. I am so blessed to have had the opportunity and to have met some of the most incredible people along the way.

The lessons I have learned this summer greatly outweigh the challenges I’ve faced. You’re good enough for God and he can use you in ways you never thought possible, just have a little faith.

Kristy Shearer
2018 Washington DC City Host

Applications for Spring & Summer 2019 are now open. Apply to be a CSM City Host, here.